How can you (well, maybe I'm partial) not smile when you see this cute face? I have not done well in any "exercise" from my previous blog. Haha. I had high hopes at the moment. I am still at the same weight so at least it hasn't gone up! But I definately do not enjoy looking at the mirror so something needs to be done soon! Come on, get your act together!

My son never ceases to amaze me, and I wonder how I'm ever going to pull off spending more time with him and less time working, yet still being able to support us. I miss so much away from him, he is learning new things so quickly all the time. I'm his whole world and he is mine, and quite honestly I can't see it any other way. I often wonder what it would be like if I were still with my soon to be ex. But I know this is what life intended for me. I'm just so much happier and have found myself again. I have had to depend on myself this last 15 months (well, really almost 2 years) and really suprised myself with how much I am capable of doing on my own. And most suprised to learn that I was doing most things (like my whole pregnancy) on my own even when living with the soon to be ex. It still saddens me and probably always will that I picked the wrong bio dad for my son, or sperm donor if you will. He deserved a mommy AND a daddy, but we're doing just fine. And I can't make the sperm donor want to have anything to do with his son. Maybe sometime when I have a lot of time I'll go into details, but this has gotten mightly long as it is and I'm just rambling. I love being a mommy!

Getting Healthy

Ok, it's about time! I'm finally very commited to eating healthier and exercising EVERY day. I'm still down from pre-pregnacy weight by 10 pounds (I was plump). But as the nursing slowed, my eating didn't and habbits started getting bad and now I've gained 15 pounds from all I'd lost right after my son was born, a YEAR ago! So, starting today, eating healthier, exercising daily, and cutting back from sugar!!!!! I can do this! I feed my son only healthy things, it's time for me to do the same! I'm even going to keep track of my waist, hips, and thigh mesurments. I have a great online tool from the company I work for. LET'S DO THIS!!

About Me

Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. Zander makes my life wonderful and I couldn't be more happy. He is my one and only baby and is absolutly perfect! I am so blessed to have such a happy, smart, fun little boy. Zander is my whole world and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm a generally happy person and am enjoying my life as a mother. I'm still quite shy, but once I get to know you there's no holding back. I'm the type of person that enjoys the scenary while on a detour. I enjoy all the little things in life, especially all my son's "firsts". I have been through some tough, challenging, and wonderful changes in the last year, but couldn't be more happy than where I'm at right now. I've recently learned there's a lot to life I wasn't aware of and so much more that I just didn't want to know, so many lies. So much has happened to me in the past, people to let go of and people to hold on to. I have chosen poorly in the past, but it's only made a smarter more self confident me and I know better next time. My poor choices have also gotten me where I am today and made me who I am today, so I'm not complaining, just learning. I believe everything happens for a reason, even if you can't figure it out right away. I hate no one and I have no regrets in my life. For if you regret something from your past, you can't appreciate the present and look forward to the future. This is by far the happiest I have ever been and I look forward to waking up to my son's babbling and smiles and starting each new day with him. Life is good. ☺

Starting fresh

I'm about to become 30. I have a one year old little boy. I am currently seeking a divorce and my husband has been gone for one full year. He has not seen his son during that whole entire time, nor has he supported him in any way. I work an hour away from where I live, but I get to bring my son with me (I work at an Infant/Toddler Day care center). I have amazing family support. I have no interest in dating. My parents helped me buy my own house. My car is having issues and needed a lot of repair this year. This is my life in a nutshell and this is the HAPPIEST I have ever been! My son is my world, I barely make ends meet, but I do it! I have a wonderful job that I enjoy going to (well, most days). I have gotten to see all my son's firsts. I can't imagine my life any other way. My husband walking out on us to go live with his girlfriend he found while I was pregnant was the best thing he could have done for us. But that will be another blog when I actually feel like giving myself time to complain about the past. I'm a different person since becoming pregnant and having a baby. A more possitve, less worrisome, more optomistic, happy person. I smile several times on a daily basis. I've found myself, and that was something my husband wouldn't let me do. And this picture is what I get to see on my drive to work. I'm one lucky gal.