Monday, November 02, 2009



How can you (well, maybe I'm partial) not smile when you see this cute face? I have not done well in any "exercise" from my previous blog. Haha. I had high hopes at the moment. I am still at the same weight so at least it hasn't gone up! But I definately do not enjoy looking at the mirror so something needs to be done soon! Come on, get your act together!

My son never ceases to amaze me, and I wonder how I'm ever going to pull off spending more time with him and less time working, yet still being able to support us. I miss so much away from him, he is learning new things so quickly all the time. I'm his whole world and he is mine, and quite honestly I can't see it any other way. I often wonder what it would be like if I were still with my soon to be ex. But I know this is what life intended for me. I'm just so much happier and have found myself again. I have had to depend on myself this last 15 months (well, really almost 2 years) and really suprised myself with how much I am capable of doing on my own. And most suprised to learn that I was doing most things (like my whole pregnancy) on my own even when living with the soon to be ex. It still saddens me and probably always will that I picked the wrong bio dad for my son, or sperm donor if you will. He deserved a mommy AND a daddy, but we're doing just fine. And I can't make the sperm donor want to have anything to do with his son. Maybe sometime when I have a lot of time I'll go into details, but this has gotten mightly long as it is and I'm just rambling. I love being a mommy!